| as i sit here, in my little black skirt and high heels, back home from my brother’s graduation ceremony, with my eyes still painfully stinging from my eyeliner, i just want to recap some thoughts i have kept up in my head of my freshman year:
after all the hardships, the joys, the terrors, and the accomplishments, we are finally over.  school is over. (okay yeah, yesterday was, same difference) we are finally done being freshmen, the people at the bottom of the barrel, waiting at the end of the food chain, the last to get our seniority rights. but that's over. we're one step closer to our goal: the oh so ever popular, big dawgs SENIORS.  we are officially sophomores (okay, maybe not so officially) what will sophomore year be like? harder? easier? a time for new friends? a time for new hard aches? i don't know. i don't know what to expect. but what i do remember, and that i will cherish for all my life, is my first and very memorable, freshman year at arcadia high school, home of the apaches. 
man, what a year. can you guys believe it? after how many days (i'd say the exact, cuz that sounds cool, but i'm lame like that and i don't know the number. BOO-HOO. ) we've gone through tests, exams, quizzes, ESSAYS (i shall murder the person who created such a task), book reports, group projects, video productions, and what else? i can't remember. and honestly, i don't want to remember. at least for another 2 1/2 months. let my poor overused and overexposed brain be. "stupid schoolwork, stop picking on me" freshman year shaped what my future is to be. okay, yeah, that mite be a little exaggerated, but what's better than a DRAMATIC pick-up line?  okayokay, i'll stop blabbering. on with the show... freshman year= full load of memories. it was such an amazing experience to full understand the meaning of an all-nighter, (and to cherish the hours of sleep we actually got) to meet new friends (another paragraph will be dedicated to that), being put to experience full hands on of high school homework, and cramming in a years worth of math into an hour session with my beat-up geo book. there will never be anything to replace what i had in my first year here… i mean, what could POSSIBLY replace it?? 
summer’s here, folks.  we're free. but of course, till summer school. out goes french, history, pe, orch, english and math, and in comes the replacing bio and algebra 2. even though i want to say i'm not going to miss this year, man, I'M GONNA MISS THIS YEAR. first year of high school.  HAHA, i can't believe how far we've gotten. doesn't is seem like just yesterday we were just beginning to get used to this gigantic school we had plopped into? but so much has happened since then. i've gotten to know SO many more people, and made lasting bonds, something i was hoping for in high school. over summer, i'll miss talking and screaming and shouting and jubilating with all my buds from this year, but well, actually, i'll still probably see you all in summer school. EEK! 
okay, so i wanted to dedicate this paragraph to; FRIENDS.  why? the friends i have met this year mean so much to me, and i just want you guys to know (or at least to the ones who read this) that I love you guys SOO much, and you all mean the world to me. you have truly left imprints on my heart.  So, with my topic…..
friends are priceless. but what are friends made up of? laughter, a crying shoulder, an understand mind, heartfelt hugs, and a wonderful smile. thank you all guys for being there for me at the perfect moments, and i hope i was there for you. there's nothing like a good friend, and i know i have a lot. there have been moments we've shared together where we've acted like complete idiots (you guys know i mean freshman rite? >D get the joke???), where we've poured out the names of our crushes, our frustrations with life, the excitement of getting an A when you knew FO'SHO that you'd fail, and countless other times in which my tired brain cannot label. i have more friends than i say list (okay, maybe not), and it'd be my goal to list you all. what'd that accomplish i have no idea, and honestly, it'd be a fruitless effort in my part, but i don't know. it'd be a great feeling to know that i've acknowledged someone who's made a huge impact on my life. but i’ll try that some other day when i’ve got more time on my hands. (i mean, i have to rewatch house of flying daggers you know. >DDDDjust kidding!)
HAHA. You know what’s funny? i remember thinking yesterday, OMG, school's over. we're done. this year went by SO fast, seriously, like a friggin torpedo. i don't think i've ever experienced such a fast year of boring school. and i'll cherish all the moments i had. the moments that include shouting, crying, moments of utter frustration, jubilance, excitement, complete joy, and phases of my secretly famous mood swings. i will cherish you all, and the moments WE shared together. WE MADE IT TO THE FINISH LINE BABY. thanks guys for the best starting year of my 4 years at AHS. you guys made it great. g'luck with everything, and farewell to our 04-05 freshman year. c'yall next year... WHEN I'M A SOPHMORE!!
(darn, it won't be fun not knowing any seniors. >D)
OKAY, so i don’t know if you guys still want to read what i’m going to write, but i really want to talk about something on my mind. i came back from my brother’s grad ceremony, and this is what i’ve experienced……….
the graduate ceremony was so moving. sure, the speeches were what i thought medeocre, and the presentations of the diplomas were somewhat chaotic and unorganized, i realized that didn't matter. i remember a moment, at the end of the ceremony, when all of arcadia high's seniors turned their tassels, a sign of achievement as some would say, and finally, as all graduates do in traditions, threw up their grad hats. that moment will be one of the most beautiful (kodak and picture perfect, too) moments i will ever experience in my life. and sure, it only lasted for about 2 seconds, but that whole scene impacted me. for what reason, how, i do not know. picture this. about 800 kids, graduates really, finally signfiying their 12 years of high school has come to at end. they can now, be on their own. okay, so maybe it doesn't impact you, but as i'm sitting here on my computer, pouring our my heartfelt thoughts to the unknown of the world wide web, i really don't care.  this life that i’m living is impacted the most by the moments i have seen. and enjoyed. and cherished. and lived. seen and unseen are the questions and answers, the truths and secrets, the lessons and the teachings of the world. and so, i cherish these moments. 
so this is when we bid farewell to our seniors. today, my brother. today was his graduate ceremony, and i'm going to miss my brother dearly. i'll say goodbye in two weeks, when he gets chucked off to taiwan on the love boat, but i'll say goodbye  for good in mid-august. he'll be going off to georgia tech, (that's in georgia, SEVEN STATES AWAY) (and, GO BUMBLEBEES!! haha, i mean yellowjackets )while i stay here at home. daring myself whether or not to drink pepsi or coke, while his choices shape his near future. he'll be off, studying hard like a maniac, buffing himself up at the gym, and getting drunk at toga parties. he’ll probably become some crazy psycomaniac, who will go to france to get an internship, get an internship, become fluent in french, and create the most powerful nuclear plants ever to be seen on earth. OR NOT. but, i know my brother, and i know he’s in for the greatest achievements. i’ve known him for 15 short years, and nothing will replace what i have with my brother. he’s someone to look up to, someone to fool around with, someone who will help me with my homework, and someone who will let me bug and annoy him, even though he doesn’t get to do that often with me. i don’t know if my brother will see this, BUT… when and doubt… I LOVE YOU GEGE, AND I WISH YOU THE BEST AT COLLEGE. EVEN THOUGH I KNOW YOU WON’T SAY IT, I KNOW YOU’LL MISS ME. HAHA. IT’S OKAY. I’LL MISS YOU TOO. <3333
and so, with all that has happened, i still feel….
REWIND LIFE… REWIND.
(if you guys read ALL of this, i owe you a chocalate sundae and some MAJOR PROPS. thanks for caring so much!! ) |
